work work, never ending!

the amount of work that i have right now is over-towering me pretty soon. i dont understand where do they all come from? my close friends should know pretty well that i am the kinda person who die die have to finish the work for today before hitting the bed. this drive is no longer as strong as a few years back but its presence can be felt. and so what happens where the stubborn choo is back? her body starts to go on a strike.

i can feel my body slowly breaking down bit by bit. some is entirely not my fault, like the stupid dinner experience at my favourite curry wok! never go there late at night anymore. =( headache came after the fever. i dont know. my body just doesnt feel right, totally shitty.

i have reached my max pt of being a workaholic. i truly need a day of not doing anything, just resting and more resting. =) or maybe i should shower more often like 4 times per day? i just realised showering makes me feel good among all these shit.

man eating world

outwit, outplay and outlast. this should be my new philosophy. this is something that i must learn how and to perfect it well in order to survive in this man eating world. i had witnessed selfish and self-centered acts happening right before my very own eyes which seriously disgusted me.

everyone is in this paper chase. we all want to ace and be the best. somewhere along the way, some of them have lost their human touch which is truly saddening. what is the point of fighting over just to get the questions answered? i thought papers always commented singaporeans are among the most obedient lot of people. where is the order? or maybe i should start to change my mindset because in the future, only competitive people are the last ones standing.

personal gains, personsal advanatage, personal point of view! what is wrong with all this personal issues? start thinking for the majority! stop thinking everything starts and ends with you. there are so many other reasonable and logical factors to consider so i beg you to start thinking, even for a fraction of second. start using it before it rusts. argh!

seriously, today is just a wrong wrong day. it should have been proclaimed as a holiday. i dont understand the frustration that is building within me. there are so many millions people out there who have even more serious problems to handle but i dont know why i am so irritated over mine. it is always bothering me at night and the thought of A will lead to B, C, D and slowly, everything goes back to the same original source which has angered me for so many years. when will i be able to accept it as a matter of fact and come to terms to what's done cannot be undone.

i am just shouting a silent scream.

he knows magic

this guy knows magic perfectly well.


at sun and moon


puff up!


yummy tofu dessert


after the esplande concert


vivo!


laser display


songs of the sea!


teddy bear!!!


me with oscar

is it good?

i once told a friend that why he should not hide his feelings to himself. if he was sad, he should learn to sad. if he was happy, he should learn to laugh. however, my stand was challenged today.

i am the kind of girl who shows all my emotions on my face. my friends have extremely no problems in knowning my mood for that day. although i may have a stern face or am super unhappy with something, all i ask from them is just a few minutes of alone time. i need it as a buffer to cool my head and to think through. when i reply with nothing, is because i dont want to hurt anyone with my words. i know myself very well. i am afraid i would say or do hurtful things which i wish it would never happen.

enough of serious stuff. i am super happy today! it is declared as MY DAY. =)